So beat society NC got cancelled. Initially I tried to write it off like it wasn’t a big thing. I tried to ignore it and say oh well, I’m used to getting so close and then getting a slap in the face. You see with me and music, something really cool always happens and then something shitty happens. I was so motivated when I knew I was going to be in beat society. I made some of the best beats I’ve ever made. Since the day I found out it was cancelled I’ve made one, and it hasn’t been anywhere near where it should be. Admittedly I haven’t been myself because of this. That killed my drive, and I haven’t been able to express myself creatively since. As any artist will tell you, that’s extremely frustrating and depressing. I let it affect me outside of music, and into my personal life. I thought I had a little anxiety problem for a few days, because all that creativity was just stuck inside, looking for a way to come out. Most of the times I went out I wasn’t acting like myself. So the past couple of times I went out I made an effort to just let go and have fun, and to ignore whatever it was that was bothering me. And I did, had a good time both times too. So for all of you who have been wondering what’s been wrong with me, there it is. I finally figured it out. It’s amazing what having a couple of bad weeks can do to your life. It makes people think you’re an asshole. It makes people think you’re not the same person anymore. It makes you seem so very boring and disinterested in life…..
This is my warning to all artists and musicians, hell anyone that creates in some way. Do not let problems with your music/art get you down to the point that you lose other things that are important to you. I’m sorry to everyone…especially to myself.
